Is God Punishing Me?

Prayer

The Prayers You Were Never Taught

Discover the Prayer That Holds Asking and Surrender Together

"Surrender is not the death of desire."

Silence

When There Is No Answer from God

How to Keep Praying When God Is Silent

"You prayed. Nothing recognizable happened. I am still here."

Surrender

The Cost of Yes

The Meaning of Surrender in Gethsemane

"This book asks you to stop in the corridor."

Where You Been Lord

A Lifelong Conversation with a God Who Did Not Always Answer

"What if silence does not mean absence?"

What do you do when you still believe in God, but you no longer know what to do with His silence? For sixty-three years, one woman has prayed. She prayed when she was a child. She prayed when she buried her mother. She prayed when war took her brother. She prayed when she lost her daughter. She prayed while the wicked prospered. She prayed when anger gave way to exhaustion. And through it all, she kept asking one question: Where You Been Lord.This is not a book about easy answers. It is not a book that tells hurting people to pray harder, trust more, or accept that everything happens for a reason. It is a story about what happens when faith survives the answers that never came.Through grief, lament, accusation, silence, and a lifetime of unanswered questions, one woman keeps talking to God even when she is no longer sure what the conversation means. And slowly, another possibility begins to emerge. What if silence does not mean absence? What if God's presence in suffering is not an explanation for suffering? What if the deepest answer is not, “Here is why it happened,” but, “You were not alone when it did”?Where You Been Lord is theological literary fiction for anyone who has ever prayed and heard nothing back, anyone who has ever been angry with God and felt guilty for it, anyone who has kept believing while wondering whether God had gone quiet. This is a book for tired believers. For wounded believers. For people who have not walked away from God, but no longer know how to talk to Him. And for anyone who has ever wondered whether the God they thought was absent may have been sitting beside them in the dark all along.

Revelation: Exposing the Babylon in All of Us

Unmasking the Illusions and Desires That Rule Us

"The unveiling begins on a rock in the sea, inside a man's loss."

Revelation: The Four Horsemen Break Their Silence

The Truth They Were Sent to Uncover

"We are not coming for you."

The War of the Lamb

A Novel

The Unmasking of Oz

The Road to Revelation

"There is no place like Oz."

A dystopian retelling of The Wizard of Oz through the lens of the book of Revelation. In the Dust District, the people line up each morning beneath broadcast towers for water, seed, debt notices, and the Wizard's blessing. Then thirteen-year-old Dora Gale sees the broadcast skip — and the lie becomes visible. A parable about empire, catechesis, and the Lamb who has been present in every cut the regime made.

After Oz: There is No Place Like Home?

There's No Place Like Home?

"The curtain fell, and the lie only changed shape."

The Fall of the Beast

The Lamb Who Refused to Become Babylon

"The Beast falls because the Lamb refuses to become it."

The Beast does not fall because the Lamb becomes stronger, more violent, or more ruthless than Babylon.The Beast falls because the Lamb refuses to become it.The Fall of the Beast confronts one of the most persistent assumptions in Christian interpretation: that evil must finally be defeated by a greater act of force. Reading Revelation through the character of the Lamb, Marty C. Gool challenges the idea that God overcomes violence by perfecting violence, destroys domination through greater domination, or defeats empire by becoming the ultimate empire.Revelation presents another kind of victory.Babylon builds itself through fear, coercion, economic control, allegiance, and the power to make others conform. The Beast appears overwhelming. The Lamb appears vulnerable. Yet Revelation reverses everything we have been taught to expect about power.The Beast fills the horizon—but it is collapsing.The Lamb stands almost unnoticed—but remains unchanged.This book explores the theological struggle beneath Revelation’s symbols: not simply who possesses the greatest power, but what kind of power can survive without becoming what it opposes.The Lamb conquers without becoming the Beast.He confronts Babylon without becoming Babylon.And that may be Revelation’s most unsettling announcement:The system that appears strongest is already falling, while the One who refuses its methods is still standing.

The Other Prodigal Son

The Son Who Did Not Leave

Holy Anomaly

Detained

A Novel

"Detained is a story about what happens when punishment is made holy."

This site asks a question many carry in silence: Is God punishing me? Detained answers it through story — people suffer not because God punishes them, but because human beings build systems of punishment and defend them with the language of faith. It follows lives caught inside a machinery of detention, removal, and religious justification. Its coda, "The Gate," is the unveiling: a man prays sincerely while the system processes the vulnerable in God's name — not because God punishes the vulnerable, but because people can, and call it God.